the smack factor

HEre I am again, unsure of when I’ll get tired.  But tonight its not because life is just freaking the crud out of me, it’s because I’m filled with anticipation.   I put out major effort last week and I’m really hoping that something will happen.  And happen tomorrow.  I want emails I want phone calls - I want people to say “we’d love to have you come in and talk!” so I can start my new path — a great job that i WANT and making money so I can start paying Factor back for everything and start feeling like I’m contributing again to life as a human.  Please, please… Gods of the job market and hiring managers, please smile upon me and give me this chance.