I used to work for someone who would bandy about “awesome”, “great”, and “yay” as if the world were her vein and those false hoots were the heroin. It began as a fun mantra that would chase away the crazy of our group. Sort of laughing in the face of an idiot executive who tried to crush everyone with her own idiot insecurity turned asszilla. It then warped into the triggers that they are today. The triggers that made me want to gag in my own mouth or on my computer every day when the IM would pop up “This is great!”"It’s gonna be great!”"yay!” — you know, an appropriate response to anything.
Anyway, today, I was about to sit down and blog about how
- there is no temp work this morning
- I’m still confused about my interview yesterday
- I still haven’t heard from the company I interviewed with Friday and I’m nervous to call yet again
- I am feeling that wonderful beat down feeling again
- factor said to me that living together isn’t just fun and games, it’s real life too. wtf. real life? noooooo!!
- I am obsessed with Britney Spears. I feel for her. Unsupported and uncared for mental illness just sucks. Imagine how much better she would feel about herself and how much more focused and WELL she would be if she just got some help. Her poor family. Like I should care! Silly.
- I haven’t talked to my family in weeks because i have nothing positive to say and I don’t want to talk about the work situation
but instead of doing that, I decided to tell myself that today is going to be awesome.
Day certainly looks like its off to a promising start (not!). *If* it doesnt get any better, well.. at least its Friday.
Have you been to http://www.wefeelfine.org/ ?
You know what’s sad? I don’t know what that “Friday relief” feels like anymore. I mean, granted, my job is looking for a job every bloody day of the week, but it doesn’t stop on the weekend. and sometimes there is nothing going on. I really really can’t wait until that first friday of my first week of work - where I will be able to celebrate with other contributing members of society that which is Friday happy time.
I can’t wait!
that site is neat as hell.
I wonder if I’m ever scraped!!
Hi! It’s NOT Friday anymore this week…and you did more than survive…is that not an “awesome” feeling??? Please tell! You are going thru some bumper sticker days…you know the one I mean…the SHIT HAPPENS one…hey, it happens and then there is tomorrow…even the next moment has new possibilities. Tell Factor I think he’s 100% right…you may not be working at the job you want…you may not be doing what you’d choose at the moment…BUT, you are LIVING LIFE every single day soooo hang tight and keep searching. This is not pity time…it’s time to grow into something even more beautiful than you can imagine… remember the stages of the butterfly??? Tomorrow will come, and you will experience FRIDAY again, just not now. Doesn’t that make you wonder about what’s in store for you??? I think it’s a great opportunity to learn about your own personal resources…go for it…I can’t wait to see the evolution of Ms Smack in time
Hey…we leave for Singapore tuesday morning to see Ms.Rebecca…can’t wait…love to you and Factor too xoxoox Mama O