Seat’s taken
January 31, 2008 by smack
Oh hooray for inability to sleep. Once again I couldn’t fall asleep last night. It didn’t help that when I crawled in at 130am Factor had stolen the blankets diagonally so I had like.. a triangle to work with. I know he gets all huffy and grunty in his sleep (I always say when he’s asleep that’s the only time he ever displays anger at me) if i disturb him, so i try to just get what I can blanket wise and just fall into blissful sleep. Lately when I try to conk out, I close my eyes and my brain creates a spinning sensation. Not college drunk spins, not that severe, but more like you’re on someone’s back all piggy-style, and they’re turning around to look at something - around and around. In fact, in my brain, I’ve actually concocted that picture a few times. It makes me nauseous and anxious so I open my eyes. Freak, right? Totally.
Last night was no different, only this time it was the sensation of sliding feet first off the edge of the bed/edge of a cliff. This was by far the most disturbing sensation so far - so I immediately plopped out of bed and padded off to the bathroom for a Tylenol PM, poured myself a glass of water, and rewatched Chelsea Lately and Family Guy. 3:00am rolls around and I skittered once again into the room and I swear i saw Factor with his arm in the air. but we’ll leave that alone. Anyway. I lie down and fall into a TPM sleep. Only to wake up scratching my head or flip flopping around all night. And then, like always, bless their little hard hat covered hearts, the construction turdlets pull out the ole band saw or whatever that torture device is (oh!I hear it now!) and start sawing away at metal objects just for giggles. At 8:00am. Fine. do what you will.
and would you believe this post started with the intention of me listing out for you, because I know you need to know, what i would be doing today to keep myself busy/sane.
Ok, fine, let’s just aim for busy.
I stopped caffine two weeks ago, my doctor told me to, i was at 8 cups a day. I feel so much better and i am doing much better with sleep and dreams and my moods. I feel like a recovering alcoholic i have slips, and the caffine rush is fun. I started getting bladder spazums and before my trip to a urologist, my doctor said to go off caffine, im only 33 but im turning into an old lady! So thats why old folks homes dont have the real coffee. I feel soo much better. I did not know coffee and diet coke could really be that harmful, i felt insulted when my doctor told me that. I am just bored here and hope you dont think this is to preachy!
oh my gosh, not preachy at all. I swear that deep inside I know the fact that I practically inject caffeine has at least 90% to do with my odd sleeping habits and probably overall mood, health, and burping. I think i’m going to start ween(er)ing myself off of it. Next lb of coffee is going to be decaf and I’m going to do half decaf half regular. My doctor actually told me YEARS ago (like, when I was 23) that my caffeine and acid intake was absolutely ridiculous to my health. I’m such a good listener
Hey, what the heck is a bladder spasm! like a hard laugh/hard sneeze deedley dee?
Your so funny! A bladder spasm is like a gurgle that keeps on gurgling.
you know, this is all very interesting.
I’m starting weening immediately! I think I have the ultimate gurgle!