i just overcame a huge struggle
March 22, 2008 by smack
To leave the camera at home this weekend, or take it to CT with me. I have a huge backlog of photos, some personal, mostly work, and of course, some from a friend’s engagement party where I oddly and unexpectedly became the official photog. Even being ordered times what photos to take. not that I’m complaining. I was actually very honored at the time. and now I’m just mantra-blasting myeslf that some people do not know what anal (super amateur) photog types go through in the FREE handing over process. I hate letting photos out of my hands without some sprucing. And I hate even more that people think it happens so fast. I’m a perfectionist at many things, and this is no different. Even though its novice perfection. Anyway. Factor said “you can do it, take a break and actually just chill for once”. Which would be SO NICE. and I’d actually be IN some of the pictures!
However, it keeps looking at me. I feel pre separation anxiety. I know that if I leave [not yet given a name] behind I’ll actually catch up on photos I need to get done, but I am SO afraid I’m going to be out and about and see something that I want to capture! Not like… a five year old… but something beautiful or creepy. Which are really synonymous sometimes. I seriously feel a knot building in my stomach comprising potential shots missed.
I put the camera in it’s time out spot. And if I’m strong enough, he’ll stay over there until I get back Sunday night.
*nodding my head in agreement* it’s one thing if they want you to be the official photog, that’s fun…but when they start snapping requests at you to take someone’s picture when you’re in the middle of a conversation with a friend you haven’t seen in awhile, it’s frustrating. that happened at the last party i was at…it made me feel like i was being used…
if it were me, i would take the camera with me but put it at the bottom of my bag. it’s always nice to know it’s there, just in case a spaceship lands or something.