I have almost completely filled my June social calendar - work related. It includes:
- free flight to a free party including a free stay in Vegas. to cover probably the most ridiculous launch party on earth
- the preparty to the James Beard foundation awards. and if you watch Top Chef you know it’s a cheffy award. I can only hope Tom Coli…coliquio…Koala… the bald judge will be there.
- possible webby award attendance (THAT is what I am really geeked about)(literally, geeked)
- doing the humpty dance for the democratic presidential candidates. not really
All of this is fun and exciting and mind blowing and surreal and the antithesis of what I’ve said for oh, i don’t know… 31 years: I just want to be left alone. Not gonna happen any time soon. And I think I might really start to like it. The only problem I’m having now is I need to get over myself.
“….see, I want to make sure people know I’m smart… so like, I want to weave some more meat into my posts” - me, to coworker from a previous post
“but it’s not the Harvard review… people aren’t expecting the Harvard Review” - coworker
“And I know this. And it’s fine. I just need to figure out my flow and still be able to work on smart things. Because I’m smart”
some silence
“I dont know, I think I’ll just put a disclaimer at the bottom that says ‘please note, [smack] is smart, she can do more than just write about parties” - me
“no, it should say ‘[smack] is self conscious, she is worried about your perception of her’” - coworker
“you’re so right, I should just be comfortable and confident that I know I’m smart, and that should be enough. I need to get over it. I mean — I know what a command line is!!” - me
“But do you know what a CLI is?” - coworker
“crispy… lickin’… interface” - me
“yes, that’s it, crispy lickin’ interface. CLI is your mouth” - co worker.
It’s hard to shake man- having worked alongside egotistical brilliance has always made e feel like I have to prove to others that I’m smart, not just a fluffy turd. Which even back then I shouldn’t have cared. Oh well, I should just freakin’ relax and enjoy what I’m doing, because it’s bloody freakin awesome.
Oh yeah, and someone described my humor as Dennis Miller-esque.
And then accused me of promoting heroin use.
I’ve always noticed that for every person out there that thinks you’re just full of fluff, there is one person that recognizes your talent the way you expect them to. You can’t make everyone see the light, that’s just how things are. You should enjoy what you have now and make the most of it! Just be glad you AREN’T stuck in a place where you do have to write and talk to people about things like “CLI”…whatever the hell THAT is. I mean who uses that in conversation? Seriously.
Heh well this all sounds fantastic, it’s like your dream job! Not that it matters, but people can tell you’re smart by the way you write, not by what you write about.
I’m so happy that you’re loving your work. Keep loving it and your talent will shine through no matter what it is that you write about.
Maybe you could pick a current events topic and write on it once a week , give your spin on it.
I took the time and found your new post, wow its great! You are getting paid to be yourself! Way to go, i found your full name on flickr, im not a crazy stalker, just to let you know how i got there.
you are my hero.
for getting out first, and for being awesome second.
@Tricia: please don’t out me!
I wont!
I’m thrilled you have a job that pays you to be you…life doesn’t get much better than that! Keep writing the way you write. It’s your voice that makes your writing unique…and your word choice, of course. (turd words, anyone?) We all know you’re a smartie who occasionally dabbles in fluffy turdness…is there something wrong with that? But then again, I’ve been stalking you since 3rd grade…
I do believe you need to enter your url to cross promote young lady
It was a few posts like this that got me hooked on your writing long ago. You seem to be in your prime and I love that your job lets you flaunt it.
*I also now use Smack-isms around the house. You should write your own dictionary.
ha! smack-isms. love it. you know how i feel about your writing. don’t change a thing. even when you’re talking about parties, you still sound like a smarty pants.
Wow - you’re blowing up over there! That’s awesome.
But seriously - I still don’t understand what this CLI thing is. I’m so unhip.
um, gayle sicked us miami girls on you–what you gotta say to this coworker is “dude–wanna hear something funny?” and then it’s all good…. and really, if i wanted smart i would be on npr.org or something; maybe checking out “the physics review”.
by the way, i thought that it was very smart when you put the feminine hygiene (i don’t even know how to spell that–shows how smart i am) product on our christmas tree… now, that’s intelligence, folks!